Monday, May 31, 2004
Did you ever tell someone everything and then get completely abandoned by that "understanding" person. That happened to me a couple of years ago. I'm pretty weary about stuff since then. I don't understand why someone who claimed to care so much about me could just leave me. I'm so defensive about things now--very hesistent about who to trust and how much of myself to give.
I am sad about the way I'm treating someone because of this stupid defence mechanism and for that I am very sorry. It's unfair to him because I'm just holding this nasty grudge for something he can't help and doesn't really get and then I feel guilty about everything so it's not really fair to me. I am presently solving this problem.
Other than that...another rowdy weekend at browns--full of hockey, friends, sex and booze. Good times had by all. Lots of pictures and video to be seen. I'm working on a new picture page as I seem to have filled my droplet page so keep an eye on the links for a new site.
Shan
I am sad about the way I'm treating someone because of this stupid defence mechanism and for that I am very sorry. It's unfair to him because I'm just holding this nasty grudge for something he can't help and doesn't really get and then I feel guilty about everything so it's not really fair to me. I am presently solving this problem.
Other than that...another rowdy weekend at browns--full of hockey, friends, sex and booze. Good times had by all. Lots of pictures and video to be seen. I'm working on a new picture page as I seem to have filled my droplet page so keep an eye on the links for a new site.
Shan
Wednesday, May 19, 2004
I can't stand the rain...
I am a cryer...what can I say. Everyone knows it...I cry drunk, sober, happy and sad. I like to cry...I feel that sometimes I can show better emotion that way and for me, it gets everything out. Today..I cried twice...nothing happened...I'm not fighting with anyone. I watched Oprah...she was giving away a million dollar wedding. They narrowed it down to 3 couples. The first were best friends for like 13 years and fell in love. The second lived in the same neighborhood and only met at a dance club...they fell in love. The third were Army pilots and discovered their love after he got the cancer. It was nice...I cried all show. Then, I watched the hockey game tonight and I got so nervous, I cried for the entire last 3 minutes of the game. I was nervous for calgary and then after it was all over and I saw all of the sad faces on the sharks...I cried for them and then cried for the Flames because they were so happy. I really love to cry. It's good for me.
Saw Shrek 2 tonight with dad and jamie...it was freaking awesome...to anyone going to see it...watch Puss in Boots...he's scrumtrulecently hilarious. AND...sunglasses hut called me today and offered me the job so I go in tommorow before working at sobeys. I can already tell the next 2 months are going to be busy.
GO FLAMES--BRING THE CUP HOME!
Shan
I am a cryer...what can I say. Everyone knows it...I cry drunk, sober, happy and sad. I like to cry...I feel that sometimes I can show better emotion that way and for me, it gets everything out. Today..I cried twice...nothing happened...I'm not fighting with anyone. I watched Oprah...she was giving away a million dollar wedding. They narrowed it down to 3 couples. The first were best friends for like 13 years and fell in love. The second lived in the same neighborhood and only met at a dance club...they fell in love. The third were Army pilots and discovered their love after he got the cancer. It was nice...I cried all show. Then, I watched the hockey game tonight and I got so nervous, I cried for the entire last 3 minutes of the game. I was nervous for calgary and then after it was all over and I saw all of the sad faces on the sharks...I cried for them and then cried for the Flames because they were so happy. I really love to cry. It's good for me.
Saw Shrek 2 tonight with dad and jamie...it was freaking awesome...to anyone going to see it...watch Puss in Boots...he's scrumtrulecently hilarious. AND...sunglasses hut called me today and offered me the job so I go in tommorow before working at sobeys. I can already tell the next 2 months are going to be busy.
GO FLAMES--BRING THE CUP HOME!
Shan
Sunday, May 16, 2004
Hello my neglected blog...
Last night...whatta night. I got drunk...surprise, surprise. I got emotional...surprise, surprise. I had a fight with someone that I care a lot about...surprise, surprise. As always kid, thanks for the good talk. Even though I still have unresolved issues, I know that you try your best to hang in there and deal with me.
Everyone else seemed to have had a pretty rough night too but we all stuck with it together. Good job kids. Certainly one of my highlights was after looking for Colin for what seemed like hours, he was found passed out solid on Taryn's bed..drooling. So hot.
I had a good time for the most part--Thanks to Taryn, Janette, Janna, Dave, Colin and all the others who had to endure partyers last night. Browns Court Block Parties are freakin awesome.
Shan
Last night...whatta night. I got drunk...surprise, surprise. I got emotional...surprise, surprise. I had a fight with someone that I care a lot about...surprise, surprise. As always kid, thanks for the good talk. Even though I still have unresolved issues, I know that you try your best to hang in there and deal with me.
Everyone else seemed to have had a pretty rough night too but we all stuck with it together. Good job kids. Certainly one of my highlights was after looking for Colin for what seemed like hours, he was found passed out solid on Taryn's bed..drooling. So hot.
I had a good time for the most part--Thanks to Taryn, Janette, Janna, Dave, Colin and all the others who had to endure partyers last night. Browns Court Block Parties are freakin awesome.
Shan
Sunday, May 09, 2004
Impulsive Aries people like to party and sometimes don't know when to call it a night. Their competitive streak makes them prone to closing-time shot contests. They're sloppy, fun drunks, and they get mighty flirty after a couple tipples. Getting Aries people drunk is a good way to get what you want out of them, should other methods fail. Aries can become bellicose when blotto, but they will assume that whatever happened should be forgiven (if not forgotten) by sunrise. They can be counted on to do the same for you -- so long as you haven't gone and done anything really horrible to them last night, you sneaky Gemini.
Trademark cocktails
Aries, born under the hot-stuff planet Mars, is the ruler of spicy food and red things -- and for balance, astrologers recommend they eat tomatoes, onions, olives and greens. That's right, Aries, you were born under the sign of the bloody Mary. Aries also rules grapefruit, and they've been known to kick back a salty dog and a sea breeze or two. For extreme hotcha, try a concoction with cinnamon liqueur in it.
Shan
Trademark cocktails
Aries, born under the hot-stuff planet Mars, is the ruler of spicy food and red things -- and for balance, astrologers recommend they eat tomatoes, onions, olives and greens. That's right, Aries, you were born under the sign of the bloody Mary. Aries also rules grapefruit, and they've been known to kick back a salty dog and a sea breeze or two. For extreme hotcha, try a concoction with cinnamon liqueur in it.
Shan
Tuesday, May 04, 2004
Well...it's been over a week...I missed you blog.
Katie has come and gone. I miss her already. We went out on Thursday and I got my tongue pierced and a tattoo and katie got 4 tattoos and taryn got one on her foot. We went out that night to stupid myrons trivia and then on Friday, we had a fake bachelorette party. It was a blast...Katie made like fifty bucks and bought us pizza...it was great. Except for kissing the old man. that was a little gross. Thanks again for that Katie.
I'm having a cranky day. I think I am just realizing that Katie is gone and Tash and Sheena have left...Rachael leaves tommorow and Ash leaves on Sunday. and friends is going off the air. I love that show. I cried watching a commercial for it. It's sad. I'm locking myself in my room for days and just crying...we're having a relapse of the creek incident. Damn this time of year...taking away my shows. I don't watch any of the new shows...so they take away all my old ones to sour me. How I wish I was goulated...but really Friends is like a goulegacy.
Shan
Katie has come and gone. I miss her already. We went out on Thursday and I got my tongue pierced and a tattoo and katie got 4 tattoos and taryn got one on her foot. We went out that night to stupid myrons trivia and then on Friday, we had a fake bachelorette party. It was a blast...Katie made like fifty bucks and bought us pizza...it was great. Except for kissing the old man. that was a little gross. Thanks again for that Katie.
I'm having a cranky day. I think I am just realizing that Katie is gone and Tash and Sheena have left...Rachael leaves tommorow and Ash leaves on Sunday. and friends is going off the air. I love that show. I cried watching a commercial for it. It's sad. I'm locking myself in my room for days and just crying...we're having a relapse of the creek incident. Damn this time of year...taking away my shows. I don't watch any of the new shows...so they take away all my old ones to sour me. How I wish I was goulated...but really Friends is like a goulegacy.
Shan
